A few weeks ago, a colleague and I were in Seattle for a company event. At the end of it, he gave me a ride back to the hotel where we were both staying and we had a heart to heart about how stressed I seemed, what a big step marriage is, etc. Toward the end of the conversation, he asked, “Are you going to make it through the next few weeks?” I assured him that I’d be fine. I knew he didn’t believe me.

Today is my first day back in the office and that same colleague just asked me how I’m doing. I told him I felt good and was slowly re-acclimating to office life after being out of it for two weeks. He said, “Yeah, you seem really calm.”

That’s when it hit me that most of the people I work with here in Oregon have only known me since I’ve been engaged and, as a result, harried with wedding planning. They don’t know how excited I usually am to take on new projects, or help with events, or just sit around to shoot the shit over my morning cup of coffee. As far as they know, I’m a frenetic, disheveled space case who doesn’t even have time for a “How was your weekend?” conversation because I’m so freaked out about getting work work done so I don’t have to work on it when I should be doing wedding work or house-buying work.

In other words, it’s so nice to just have to concentrate on one thing at a time. And to call my mother and say, “Hey, mom, what’s up? Nothing? Yeah, me too.” And to skip a gym visit without worrying that my wedding dress will explode if I take one deep breath. And to be able to take my bottle of Xanax out of my purse and put it back in the medicine cabinet.

But mostly, I’m loving going about my day thinking about how nice it will be to go home to my cute new hubby in our darling new house and have dinner on our lovely new dishes using our beautiful new flatware. Later, we can watch TV in bed on our gorgeous new sheets, right after I take a bath and dry off with our luxurious new towels.

Yeah, so far, married life is pretty fucking swell.

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